No less than the stars!

The wastebasket that is my life

Why do I pay $50 a year on a blog I write in once a month?  Because my life isn't nearly as exciting as I thought it was, I can't make it interesting when it isn't, and I am in denial.

Of course.

Also, why should I have to write an entire choral handbook for my high school music methods class, when I want to teach elementary school?

Put that in your pipe and smoke it.

When nothing is left, everything is gained

I am considering going back to individual therapy.  It isn't that I think I'm losing control again, it is simply that I enjoyed having a truly unbiased person to give me input about my life.  The therapist I had showed me so many new ways to think and live, and it was so incredible.  I'd love to have that support again, especially since my semester seems to be unraveling already.

Ugh.  I want nothing more than to unload my life in regards to guys and how they drop a bomb on you and expect you to just go on with life like they never said anything.  I'd love to tell you how I don't have time in my life for such bombery, but this is a blog that publishes out into the Void.  So, I will leave it on this rather vague note.

In childish news, I bought two new toys!  One is a stuffed animal, a moose, to add to my growing animal collection for my future elementary music classroom.  I also ordered a little M.O. figurine (the cleaning robot from Wall-E!), and it is soooo adorable!  Sadly, it is a birthday present for my friend C (mentioned in the previous entry), so I will not have M.O. much longer.  LOL  Ah well, C deserves this birthday present.

Well, back to my homework!

If you want to be free, be free

Ugh.  I broke up with N yesterday.  To make a long, pointless, waste-of-my-life story short, he didn't pay enough attention to me, have enough time for me, etc.  And I felt unimportant and under-appreciated in his life.  So I got out of it.  Only took me a month of wasted misery and time to do so.  So needless to say, I'm mostly relieved but also slightly saddened at having to give up on a person so soon after meeting him.  It breaks my heart to give up on anyone because I believe everyone deserves the best of what humanity has to offer.  *sigh*  Whatever.  My friend C has really been supporting me and distracting me from this whole situation.  He's so great!  :)

In other news, life at school is delightfully busy.  I love nothing more than to be in the academic zone and succeed at the things I'm best at.  Overall, my life is looking rather sunny these days.  :)

Oh, the places you'll go!

August has passed, and September is here, so why do I pay $49.50 a year to have a blog I don't use every day?  I have no idea.  I must enjoy spending my money frivolously.  ANYWAY... I have a night class each Tuesday from 6:30-9pm, and I think it may kill me.  The subject matter is of vital interest to me (high school music methods), but it's so much information all at once that I often find myself rather overwhelmed.  I'm just glad I plan on being an elementary school teacher (or a middle school teacher, if worse comes to worse).  But as they say, God laughs hysterically when WE plan.  I always like to say He will stick me in a high school in Alaska because of my plans I keep making.  Ah well, we work with what we are given because He does the same for us. :)

In other news, all is generally well on the boyfriend/girlfriend front.  My sad attempt at a relationship is a one day at a time kind of thing, and sometimes it's just plain difficult.  I don't want to go into too much detail, but I just feel inadequate sometimes.  At the end of the day, all I can do is my best and that may or may not be good enough for those involved.  *shrug*

I shall leave with a quote...

"All one's life is music, if one but touches the strings rightly and in time." - John Ruskin